I have felt a load of hurt after I turned 15. Part of that hurt came from losing one of my best friends unexpectedly. If you've been following my blog life since high school, then you're well aware of the worst April Fools Day of my life. My senior year of high school, one of my friends called me while I was in school and told me that my best friend had died. How'd he die? I'm not sure. I never actually got the full story from his mom and I'd always been too afraid to ask. In fear of hurting her, because I knew what it felt like to lose a family member, like when I lost my brother. So happens that the two had been the best of friends, and losing two halves that made the whole made it really difficult for me to cope.
Every now and then, I have moments where I remember all of the pain because I remember a memory or two. Like when I went back to Grafenwoehr and I could just envision the two skateboarding on the school steps, and pushing Jacob off the swing at recess... Sometimes it's all so vivid, that it becomes hard to concentrate on what's in front of me.
Seven years later, and I can say that I've been given time to heal. Today it didn't hurt as much waking up realizing what day it was. I can commend my husband for healing so much of my broken heart. But even though I've found peace in my life, I'll always remember the chubby skater boy that I grew up with. I know you're always watching out for me, and I just hope that I'm making you proud. I miss and love you Jakey, forever and always.
Jacob Juan Gueits
August 7, 1989 - April 1, 2010
If you're from Vilseck and you knew Jacob, please leave your most cherished memory of him in a comment. "Let their memory live on through the telling of their stories." <3